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Saturday, October 02, 2004
why am i still single? i was reading manda's and leen's bloggies. thought i'd join them and give my 2 cents as well. why am i still single? it's a VERY interesting question... i've NEVER been NOT single before. so wat does that make me?some ppl think that it's funny that i've never been with someone before. wat they prolly meant was that everybody they knew have coupled at LEAST, once. im sure they meant good, but i always did ponder about this "status" more frequently than i should have. So, WHY am i still single? * i believe that the one that i've been waiting for all my life will find me one day. (wat a fairy-tale but i sincerely do pray, wish and hope so.) * the guys that i liked, the ones i had MAJOR crushes on...for years, actually...did not like me. (their loss, i say...*so the perasan,lol*) * the guys that liked me, im simply not interested. i need that spark. the spark that will intrigue me. and keep me liking them... =) i dont think one-sided love works. trust me, i know. only been in that ONE side FOREVER. * haha...this is my fault, i admit. i scare them away by telling my crushies that i like them. so byebye to them. * perhaps there's something wrong with my personality. some ppl think im a flirt. (i don't think so.) i just mix around a LOT with guys. i feel more comfortable with them, amazingly. thus, i end up being their little sister?*sigh* * i can be REALLY immature. the thought of me having a relationship would be...i dunno,a fluke. i just want someone to love me as much as i love them!! is that too much to ask?? well, there you go. the reasons as to why im still single. this reasons only apply for the moment. there's prolly a whole lot more. singlehood has never been better, yet it has never been so boring.haha. =) Posted by born2smile at 06:38 pm (11) shared their sunshine! Permalink driving lessons.i survived. heyloz... :P ehehe....went for my SECOND driving lesson on thursday. ohmigod...talk about SUPER-FREAKED out man. second lesson and mr instructor makes me drive on the MAIN ROAD. not only that....DRIVE TO SHAH ALAM. i thought i'd be sitting in the passenger seat while HE drives me there. boy, was i wrong. not only did i panicked, the whole steering wheel and gear was WET with sweat. disgusting?yes, i know. mr instructor nicely commented that my face had changed color. DUH. wat did he expect?? *sigh* that was one scary drive. thank god i din mati enjin at all on my second lesson. i DID drive abit too slow though...causing some bloody ass-hole of a lorry driver to honk at me. cis. can't he see the BIG "L" sign there???baka. i survived the roundabouts. another scary place. i survived. haha...learnt how to do the three-pointer, bukit and parking. eheheh...my parking so the cacat. *blush* oh wells... =) today was my third lesson. im improving...goodie!! i drove all the way to ian zing's house on the way back from my lesson. tee-hee! but i still freak out at the main roads. im just too paranoid of other cars coming up beside me and of course, those HUGE lorries. i already feel smaller in a kancil. lorries are just TOO intimidating. *sniffs* i hate lorries. and speeding motorcyclists. they'll be the death of me if i drive on my own. la di da. *sighs* Posted by born2smile at 06:21 pm (3) shared their sunshine! Thursday, September 30, 2004
crazy for this song. LOL! heya peepz. haha...comp is STILL down so currently using library comp. sigh...so the bored. :( and i'e not been online for so long! i miss talking to all my friends online and sending stupid smileys to everyone. bleks. :P and i miss talking to that certain someone. shoot. i think this feeling's getting serious. aiks. haha...exams coming...must concentrate!!! :P but, i get that SUPER happie feeling whenever i see him. and whenever i see his sms. gosh. *blush* enuf ady. hehe... i've got evan and jaron's "crazy for this girl" song stuck in my head. i dunno why...i like it so much. at the moment only, of course. yesterday i had the nutcracker in my head, thanks to su-hsien! its bee-you-ti-ful!! *sigh* the piece is so passionate, so over-flowing with emotions. nice. *grins* i am in the LIBRARY on my one-hour break. how sad is that?? itulah..tak bawa duit lagi-lah. LOL!! left me wallet at home. crap-ness!! AND i was supposed to pay lisuen for the class page thingy. MORE crap-ness. ( sorry, lisuen!!) oh yah, today is gonna be my second driving lesson. at 5.30pm!! *grins* my instructor says he's taking me to shah alam. technically, shah alam is unchartered territory because as u all know, im EXTREMELY ulu. only been to midvalley twice. one-utama ONCE! bwahahahahha... :P so, erm the thought of driving to somewhere strange is abit the frightening. nvm, i have faith in myself. haha...i just hope i dont mati enjin anywhere embarassing. i'll just die man. okaylar...better get a head-start on my accounts hw. im drowned in work already. accounts, business studies, thinking skills and MATHS> gosh. *mock faint* gone are the good times where u can skip homework and still do well. blah. *sniffs* oh yah, i dont believe i've told u guys. eheh i failed my grade 7 practical. it's okay. partly my fault as well. but the bloody examiner was REALLY strict. sheesh, i think every teeny stumble i made, he cut 2 points. bleks. dont care. im gonna do my grade 8 anyway. hehe... allrighty...im going now. tata. =) ~ Would you look at her as she looks at meShe's got me thinking about her constantly But she don't know how i feel And when she carries on without a doubt I wonder if she's figured out I'm crazy for this girl I'm crazy for this girl...~ The girl should be changed to a guy lar. at least, to suit my situation. hehee. Posted by born2smile at 11:51 am (5) shared their sunshine! Permalink Monday, September 27, 2004
SORRY! :( i'm SO sorry ppl...LOL! this is like, the first time i can't go online for SO long. 5 days ady! *sob* im suffering here. anyways, this is gonna be a REALLY short entry hehe... been terribly busy with college and all. FINALLY submitted business plan this morn. omg...im so tired. i had coffee YESTERDAY MORNING...and i couldnt sleep the whole of YESTERDAY NIGHT. am i pathetic or wat??i dont drink coffee much, i guess that's why i erm, have delayed reactions to it?LOL! so, right now feeling rather dead. bleks. :( btw, coffee was taken at White Beans Coffee Cafe. its at SS15. coffee must've been really power man. haha. :P oh yah, BIG HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT!! ellie went for her FIRST EVER driving lesson at 7am yesterday morning!! woo-hoo!! *so proud of self* i have never EVER touched a steering wheel before so u guys can guess how freaked out i was on my first lesson. my driving instructor was SO patient...and hey, i think im not such a bad first-timer.*grins* i drove ALL the way back home on my FIRST lesson...and only mati enjin ONCE. bwahahhahahahah!!!! *grins mischievously* well, that's all the update i can erm, spit out rite now. hehe...thanks so much to all those who wished me a happie bday. and thanks SO much for posting msgs and stuff!! keep my blog alive!! i'll try to get my comp repaired as SOON as possible. *huggiess!!* =) take care peepz. sleepy and exhausted ellie signing off. =_=" Posted by born2smile at 09:37 am (3) shared their sunshine! Permalink Monday, September 20, 2004
Thank you... =) hey peeps... guess wat?im SWEET 17!! yup...heehee...today's me bday. happie bday to meeee!*sings bday song for thyself* heehee!! so the happie!! i had a great day..and woo-hoo! i can take driving lessons ady! *grins* anyways...i just wanted to recall the day and say my thank-you's. =) thank you to nick leow,wai hua, bernard, lyn wei, sook wai, wai keng, johan, mior and choong yang for remembering and wishing me..*grins* thank you to jean for calling in from aussie-land. its REALLY GREAT to hear from u after so long!! love ya lots! =) thank you to aileen and manda, u guys are just the best! =) and aileen, no one can know me as well as you do. *hugs* i love the box.*grins* haha...manda, even though i only knew u this year...u've been a GREAT friend. *huggies* thank you to my classmates. u guys are GREAT!! haha...they celebrated my bday with me with a surprise cake.being the BLUR person that i am, i din even realise it*sigh* but the cake was good..eheheh...CHOCOLATE. *grins* thanks..SO SO much! *huggies to you lot* thank you to shi wei,chester, yenhou and guang, u guys are the best guys ever. haha... =) thanks so much for the prezzies. *huggies* and yenhou, thanks so much for cheering me up the other day. one of the very few times that i see u in ur not-so-ganas mode. i feel so lucky...hahahha!! but thanks dude. *muahz* thank you to addy, adelin, ian zing, shuet zin, shiue lin and chew hsia. =) how can i EVER celebrate without having u guys with me eh?haha...and shiue lin, stop asking where's the extra inch EVERY YEAR!!! sheesh...stop stating the obvious.*rolls eyes* LOL!! in 17 years of my life, i have met so many friends. some have left, MOST of them stayed with me...some i've known practically all my life...those who've seen me grow from the short lil specky girl to the *ahem* young woman that is STILL short now. :P okaylar...so wat if im not a woman in mind...watever lah. its my bday! ehehe.. :P and some, i've only gotten to know this year but it's amazing how fast we've bonded into good friends eh?=) i just wanted to say that as we grow older, and as we pursue different paths, u guys will always be on my mind. thank u so much for remembering lil ol' ellie's bday. *grins* THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIENDS. =) may our friendship last forever. Posted by born2smile at 09:56 pm (7) shared their sunshine! Permalink |
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