its only the 3rd day into the hols and im already rather bored...sheesh. kept myself busy today by reading "sushi for beginners" and cleaning out my closet. i feel like i've got not enuf clothes. LOL>..what with the sales still on and i've got no money to spend with. just recently added a new top though...a bluish-greenish halter top from MNG. i wonder if i'll ever wear it out considering that i've become rather self-conscious with how i look. im incredibly fat. but i liked the top anyway. *defiantly* who cares if my fats hang loose?LOL...oh wait, I DO.hehe...

im already done with the book. its pretty good. lots of british wit and well, i told u they'd all get what they want in the end..hehe.. :p hmm...now i'll be even MORE bored. got nothing to read...re-reading harry potter seems abit pathetic. i've read them so many times. in fact..i've reread ALL my books at least twice. except for college textbooks la. *grins cheekily* anybody got good books i can borrow?or good books they'd like to recommend?=) hehe...books will be fully appreciated and will be treated with tender care. :)

okay...i've got nothing more to write. oh wait...mini announcement just for the sake of it! any prefects going for the reunion this year?these are the details.


Date : 3rd July 2004 (pen this in your calendar!hehe!)

Time : 7.00pm
Venue : Mona Lina Ballroom , Glenmarie
Ticket : RM55

Anybody wanna go tell me yah?i wanna go larr..see whether can kumpul gang to go though. ian zing and *ahem* jin tian will be going together...so is adelin yong. i miss seeing all the ol' pwefects. :P hehe..okay lar...damn tired ady. goodie nitez.. :)

sometimes i feel that i put myself in this position on purpose. im just too FREE as some people might put it. reading books that promote happy-ever-after endings do SOMETHING to you in the short-term...or long-term, if you're unlucky enough. i've become a believer that love happens in the most unlikeli-est places. sometimes it becomes so vivid that hmm...i probably have forgotten what's real and what's not.

being a constant failure in love i guess i am reduced to reading books that have nothing but characters who live in turmoils and ones that are SO busy that they've forgotten how to love..some are looking for love so HARD that they just fail to see the person that's been there all along...but of course, all this fiction people always get what they want in the end. how surreal. gives u that fuzzy feeling u get after watching "never been kissed"'s drew barrymore kissing wats-his-name in the end. it makes u go "awww..how shweet." i've always wondered wat i'd do if i even had the chance to get what or WHO for that matter, i want. would i jump with joy or grapple with the fact that what's happening is true?i don't know. im still waiting for it to happen.

thoughts can make u mad. reminds me of one of the poems we had to study for spm. i think it was "if" by rudyard kipling. one of my favourites. the part where he says.."never make dreams your master" fits the cap. all i ever do now is dream...and with this un-planned abundance of time in my hands, i've been dreaming wayyyy to much. about all the happy-ever-afters you can possibly imagine. and its becoming so serious that im imagining all the happy endings that my friends will have.

im feeling broody. somehow i feel that everyone's been coupling up and im stuck here, pretty much by myself lol..its so the lonely..aih. why is it so hard to find someone who likes me more than i like him?LOL. reminds me of wat a certain guy-pal said to me. guys usually dont go for gurls who like them...the ones that play-hard-to-get has always been more attractive. more tempting. i guess that's where i went wrong eh? i've never in my life played hard to get. and i've always told the guys that i liked that i liked them. not like there was many anyway. oh well...wats done is done. im glad i still have good friends that i can depend on. ones that dont mind me and understand that i CAN feel broody.wakakkaaka...

love isn't everything after all...there's so much to look forward to. =) im still sweet sixteen. at least...for the remaining few months till my bday.(*hint*) :P and as my little fairytale books...its STILL possible that my happy-ever-after ending could happen. or so my totally influenced and confused head says.

good evening people. =) today is technically the first day of my holiday. haha. how nice. =) still feel like i have to pore over my books. but i guess not.*grins widely* woke up at 8.30am this morning. dunno why i woke up so bloody early. its ridiculous. and i slept at 1am plus the night before..so that means i only got bout 7 hours of sleep. not enuff for first day holidays. and..i haven't been sleeping much for the past week. oh well. din do much in the morning. had to babysat my brother coz my parents were out. made him watch "when in rome" starring the olsen twins with me.hehehe.. :P i think they're hot. such big bluey eyes. they're wayyyyy better than miss hilary duff and her not-so-good singing.

went out with ruben and choong yang in da afternoon. met up with zach,guang,nick leow,nick kok, shi wei,chinju and ian zing at pyramid to watch HARRY POTTER>i thought it was okay la the movie. why so many ppl say not nice??they definitely cut out alot of the scenes but i found it rather enjoyable. i mean...it's different from the previous two movies. oh well...screw all those ppl who think differently.hahah!! but i must say one thing though. the new dumbledore sucks. he doesn't move and SOUND wise enuf. unlike the old one. this new one is so energetic. and well..dumbledore is supposed to be some grandpa-ish feller. new dumbledore din project that. lousy. last but not least, daniel radcliffe is so cute lar. he reminds me of aaron goh.LOL.

hmm...after that walked around abit. gang wanted to eat at kim gary. but it was like, full. we had to wait for five table's that were ahead of us. ended up eating at pizza hut instead.haha...funnily...their chicken spaggheti alfredo is not bad. or maybe i was just hungry.hahaha.. :P oh...i bought a new book today too. "sushi for beginners" by marian keyes. the title attracted me to it. its a chicklit book tho, something about these 3 gurls searchin for happiness. interesting. hehe...i hope its worth the 30 bucks i spent on it.aih...books so expensive nowadays y'know!! how's the government ever gonna encourage ppl to be avid readers if the price for a freakin paperback costs more that 20 bucks on average?!! they think everyone all rich ar?ish....geramnye. i mean i LOVE reading...and there's so many books i'd love to buy..but thanks to their pricetags i have to like, REALLY choose a book that will not disappoint. if it does, then, consider money burnt or flushed down the toilet bowl.

aih...sleepy liao. goodnite. =)

yo peeps....ellie's BACK. :P heheh....a week of gruelling papers and brain cracking exams are FINALLY over. hahah...damn bloody happie. i think it was preety obvious. first thing i did after handing up my business studies paper 2 was turn around and squeaked "exams is OVER!!!* had to squeak instead of scream coz the invigilator so bossy. guess she must be stressed.LOL...she should have chilled man. it was after all the LAST paper. :P

i have a confession to make. i didn't go online-less for a week. that's how addicted i am to the computer. sad rite?ellie has no will power. boo-hoo. i only lasted FOUR days. after that, i went online for half an hour every day.hahahhaa!!! but i had to la. stress liao. reading and studying all the time made elle a dull gal. :P

okayy...to write about my exams. haih...not much to say really. econs wasn't too bad. paper 1 was rather easy. i might have lost marks in paper 2. other than that..i think got chance to score an A. :) maths is horrid. my maths has never been brilliant unlike ppl like su-hsien and ai ling. maths just comes naturally to them. blueks. for this paper, i'll be glad to pass.heehhehehe... for thinking skills...paper 2 sucked man. not enuff time!!*screams* hopefully can get A for that too. oh dear...ACCOUNTS. this has got to be worse than maths. dont get me wrong...accounts is fun and all that BUT the paper was so packed. i had barely time to breathe!! it was like first question took such a long time...and it was like flip and do,flip and do...like robot like that.*ugh* today...i had my last paper,business studies.now...this paper im hoping to score. i am REALLY hoping to score in this paper. it wasn't hard. i just hope i din terpesong im my freakin essay.hehe...well thats the dirt on my a-level midterm exams.heh.

now...for the post-exam celebrations. besides hopping about and squeaking excitedly like a mad freak. i din do much. haha...had to go home for piano class. after that...went to pyramid with shi wei. we watched shrek 2. DAMN NICE LA!!! its so cute!!!...and FUNNY> i definitely recommend it to ppl to watch. i wouldn't mind watching it again either.LOL...puss-in-boots is totally adorable. that's one cute cat.wakakkakakaka... :P yenhou didn't join us for the movie. ish...couldnt wait for us to watch together. baka. :P hmm...after movie didnt have anything to do..had no money..so couldnt shop. so instead..shi wei and i headed to starbucks for coffee. stayed there for over an hour talking.its been a some time since we sat down and REALLY talk.hehe... parents couldn't fetch me. they were all the way in serdang to pay respects to a distant cousin of mine who passed away recently.

i've never met this cousin before. he's only 14. he's been sick for 4 years...so i guess in a way its good that he's not suffering anymore. he had brain measles. all u ppl studying bio can tell me wat it is ar?how come can make ppl die wan. not just die...the boy suffered tremendously. he was paralysed for 4 years. and well..i guess he also got a little mentally slow.couldn't talk and all that according to my dad. he only recognised his parents by their voices. its so creepy. he was only 10 when he was hit with this disease. just proves how lucky we are doesn't it?sigh...

well...anyways...since my parents couldnt pick me up yet...followed shi wei back to his place. hahaha...he gave me more caramel koala chocs from aussieland.*yum* but its all gone now. aih...my brother habiskan la. ish...only got to eat one piece.hehheeh...good enuff la. chocolate fattening... :P but it will remain one of my FAVOURITE foods of all time. :p NOW...im pretty much doing nothing. just blogging..and surfing OTHER ppl's blogs. there's not even much ppl to talk to...baka. everybody all away..*pouts* shi wei,yenhou,zach,guang and bern pulak all going hartamas tonite to play pool and fusball...they're going ALL the way there...LOL. nothing better to do..

well...got nothing more to write liao...oh yah...congrats to zach and adelin yong on their scholarships from JPA. im darn happie for u guys!!*smiles* this is ellie,signing out. *wink*