What Kind of Geek are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your IQ is	frighteningly high
You are a	word nerd
Your strength is	you actually have social skills
Your weakness is	chocolate
You think normal people are	strange
Normal people think that you are	weird
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==Tree===

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at
painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand
corner as a trademark for all my watercolors
painting.
I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.
There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go
after her.
She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a
good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm.
She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really
like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like
her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.

Reason for not going after her is because I felt
somebody so ordinary like her is not a good
match for me.
I'm also afraid that after we are together all the
good feelings will vanish.
I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her.
I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately
& I don't have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, made her accompany me for 3
years.
She watch me chase after gals, and I have make
her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very
demanding director.
When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into
us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go
on!" before running off.
The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut.
I purposely didn't want to think about what causes
her to cry but laugh at her the whole day.
When everybody go back home, she was alone
crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I
returned from soccer training to get something.
I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.
There was once when both of them quarreled.
I know that based on her character she's not the
type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided
with my girlfriend.
I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I
didn't care about her feelings and walked off with
my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like
nothing has ever happened.
I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that
my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her
out.
After going out for a day, I told her that I have
something to tell her.
She told me that coincidentally, she has
something to tell me too.
I told her about my break up and she told me
about her getting together.
I know who's the guy. He had been going after her
for quite a while.
A very cute guy full of energy, lively and
interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of
the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile
& congratulate her.
When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong
that I can't stand it.
It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I
couldn't breath.
Wanted to shout but can't.
Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man
that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.
It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and
cry. I haven't read it since then.
It says "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's
pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay."


==== Leaf =====

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she
has been relying on for so long it takes alot of
courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close
terms with a guy.
Not BGR kind but as buddy kind.
But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling
I never should have learnt - Jealousy.

The sourness in the heart can't be describe by
using a lemon.
It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the
extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 mths.
When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of
happiness.
But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he
pursue me?
Since he love me why he doesn't want to make
the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would
hurt.
Time after time, my heart was hurt.
I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love.

But, If he don't like me, why does he treat me so
well?
It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend.
Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can
know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards
me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side.
Care for him, accompany him, dote on him.
Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me.
It's like waiting for his phone call every night,
wanting him to send me sms.
I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make
time for me.
Because of this, I waited for him.
The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I
really want to give up.
Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting.
The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for
3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
begins to go after me.
Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly.
From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt
that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my
heart.

He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a
leaf away from the tree.
In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this
wind a small footing in my heart.
I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave
far away & better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't
ask me to stay.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay.


==== Wind ======

I like a gal called leaf.
Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to
be a gust wind.
A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to
the new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me
playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.
Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.

When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her
eyes.
When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes.
Looking at her became my habit. Just like she
likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something
amissed.
I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of
uneasiness.
The senior was also not there as well.
I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my
senior scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left.
The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking
at him.
I walked over and smiled to her.
Took out a note & gave to her.
She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled &
accept the note.
The next day, she appeared & pass me a note
and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow
her away.
It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf
never want to leave tree

I replied her note with this statement and slowly
she started to talk to me & accept my presents &
phone calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me.
But I have this perseverance that one day I will
make her like me.

Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no
less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But
I never give up.
If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use
all means to win her over.
I can't remember how many times I have declared
my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear
a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.
I asked "what are you doing? How come you
didn't want to reply?"
She said, "I'm nodding my head".
"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a
taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell.
During the moment when she opens the door. I
hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

       ~the end~

    love is such a weird feeling isn't it? you don't know when it'll hit you and make you happie. neither would you know when it'll leave you...it's unpredictable.

    today, i felt feelings that well, i dunno..i kinda felt guilty of having. i think i like this guy..who is really, a good friend of mine. =) i never thought that i'd like him. mainly coz i've been so hmm.."obsessed" with another particular guy for years i suppose. and somehow i think it's too soon to fall for someone. maybe it's just an infatuation..perhaps it'll go away. but i still felt hurt when he ran away,it reminded me of someone else who ran as well..( i shall not explain further) it probably din mean anything..but i guess i took it seriously.

     i was confused as to why he did it. then i remembered my sms..haha. but still...he shouldn't have left like that. ahh...watever. im being sensitive, i know. he obviously does not know that im upset. thus, me writing in here is to forget about it. everytime i write something here, i feel like a burden is being lifted up.

     i know u ppl wouldn't understand wat im blogging but wth, i've got nowhere else to vent out. =) and at least, he doesn't know bout my blog. which is good! it's probably best that he doesn't know how i feel. i can't imagine not being friends with him anymore...in case he plans to avoid me. which is unlikely coz he shall NOT know bout my mini crush. heh..

   oh well...nitenite. =)