The whole reason of writing is to leave a legacy. To myself. It's for me to go through the life that i've lived for the past 2 years (considering that's when i first started blogging) It's to remind myself the things that i've done. The funny, stupid, angry, sad and satisfying things. They're my gateway to reliving the memories that i wanna remember for the rest of my life, the memories that i'd like to forget but simply can't. The memories that i have no choice but hold on to and yet remind myself that there's always room for new ones.

Memories live forever. And that's a fact.

it's like remembering your first day of primary school where there were these little kids all scared and shy as yourself. And how relieved you'd feel when that one girl in pigtails would come to you and smile cheerfully, saying hi, and introducing to more friends that you'd still be in touch with today. It's like remembering that your dad was waiting outside the class for you because it's YOUR first day, with a boiled egg for you to eat during recess, just because it's TRADITION. And remembering what it was like playing ring-o-ring-o-roses and catching ladybugs in school.

It's like remembering how you graduated from wearing granny glasses, to thinner frames, to frameless ones and finally, to contact lenses. Or the fact that you never grew out of your standard 5 jeans. Levi's Forever. Or how you try your very best to avoid wearing skirts because they're too airy, to the day that made you think, "Hey, they're not so bad after all."

It's like remembering how you first fell in love, or falling in love for the second time just because for THOSE moments, they were the guys who made you smile. The first people who let you experienced what it's like to have butterflies in your stomach, the never-ending teasings and the unforgettable friendships that was forged in place of a relationship. They were the people who taught you how to love another person in that way in the first place.

It's like remembering all the times that you went out with your best mates, catching a movie in the mall, chit-chatting at the nearby mamak after activities in school on a Saturday. All the times that you spent keeping the phone receiver warm because that friend had something important to tell you for 3 hours or so. It's like remembering the trust and loyalty you had to your friends because they're there for you. No matter what. And they still are today.

It's like remembering how things never really changed and realising that it HAS changed throughout these years.

It's the saying, "I'm glad i did that" and "Hahahaha. Do you remember the time when...?"

It's the watching people leave, and see them return.

It's the falling and letting go.

It's the forget and forgive.

It's the writing just because you wanted to remember all of it.

Every word I say, I mean it
Every single day, I feel it
But sometimes when you talk
It's obvious you want to show it
So don't blow it

[Chorus:]
Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

I can read the signs between us
I feel it inside when you come nearer
There's a stillness in the air like no one else is there
And every moment stays in the moment
Yeah

[Chorus:]
Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate, driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

Sometimes it hurts to watch you leave
It feels like you're taking a part of me with you
I never know how it'll be
I guess it's just a mystery
But is it the real thing (that keeps me hangin on)

[Chorus:]
Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot, tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate, driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hangin on
-Bo Bice-

I *heart* Bo Bice. =) And this song just rawks my sawks. Hehehe. Dinner was good. The laughter was even better. Chocolate Indulgence is waiting for me in the fridge. Tutorial homework and assignments are looking at me in the eye, mocking me. And i'm staring back at them, saying, "Oh, gimme a break. Now, why do you think i'm smiling so much??"

I don't know what i've been told...

Ellie is getting so old. *grin*

The reason why i try not to introduce myself as Eleanor. Sigh..and tis' such a beautiful name...*muka kembangs*

Shuet Zin and i were lounging in the cafeteria having our lunch, (one that i shouldn't have taken coz i'm fasting for ACTS Church's U-Turn Prayer and Fast for the next 40 days) but i was hungry. Hehe. Never be in the way of a woman and her food. Or more like..never be in a place with food if you want to avoid temptations. *grin* So i'm fasting dinner tonight instead. >.< Which would only mean that i'll be waking up early tmr coz i'll be hungry for breakfast. Gawd, what a vicious cycle this is. But that's beside the point.

Anyway....

A girl from a few of our lectures and tutorials came up to us and asked if she could join us. So, obviously, we said yes-lah, i mean, who would turn down new friends right?? BUT, she forgot our names...so we introduced each other again.

Person : Aiyo, sorry la. I forgot your names. (turns to me and ask) What's your name again ah?

Me : (thinking it's safe to use my name instead of Ellie) I'm Eleanor. And that is Shuet Zin.

Person : Elle-what ah? How to spell?

Me : (takes out a piece of paper and sighs inwardly coz this is really the hundredth time i'm doing this)

Person : (while seeing my name on the piece of paper) Eleanor. Wah. So hard to pronounce. Who gave you that name? You gave yourself ah? Are you Malaysian?

Me : (laughs out loud) Yeah, of course i'm Malaysian! (proceeds to write full name on paper) Eleanor Chua Siew Mei. See! Malaysian! Hahhaha. My dad gave me that name. =)

Person : Oh. Haha. So weird one. Your dad Malaysian ah?

Me : Uh, yeah. =.="

Now...would you call that ignorance (hasn't anyone heard the song Eleanor by Low Millions???) or shall i just adopt Ellie as my name for future introductions? I do believe i can save at least ONE tree that way. =.=

If i gave you the sky,
If i laid down my life,
Would you believe me then?

If i promised to change,
If i carried the blame,
Would you believe me then?

Could you see it like me,
And believe what i see,
Could you listen, and remember that i love you,
Only, because i told you, because i told you so.

If you told me you lied,
But i stayed true and tried,
Would you believe me then?

And if your beauty was gone,
But my love lingered on,
Would you believe me then?

Could you see it like me,
And believe what i see,
Could you listen and remember that i love you,
Only, because i told you, because i told you so.

You take the wheel for now,
I'm too tired to drive this one home anyhow,
For now.

And when you mention my name,
Let this one thing remain,
My love, believe me now.
-Jonatha Brooke-

Hmmm. I told you so. =) If you only remembered.

WOOOT!! ELLIE IS FINALLY IN UNIVERSITY!!!! =)

After all the whining that i was BORED and blablabla, and Alan doing my countdown for me, i'm finally in uni! Wheee! =)

Heehee. I know i'm very jakun so shaddap and read. Lols. Gawd, after the *not-so-agonizing-* wait for uni to start, i finally got through the FIRST week of uni! Whee. For those of you who are not informed, i'm currently doing my Bachelor of Business & Commerce degree in Monash University Malaysia. *grins proudly* I know i was a bit bummed about not being able to go to UWA after sitting, waiting and wishing to go but Monash isn't really bad after all. Except for the environment la. It still looks like a basement to me. :P

But the PEOPLE RAWKS! hahahah.

Okay, for the first week, i went for introduction lectures and tutorials. Which is very common i'm sure. My lecturers are hmm...quite fascinating. My Intro To Micro-Econs lecturer abit juling. Heh. And botak too. But he's alright i think. My Introduction To Accounting A lecturer talks a lot. I suspect his words but hmm...shall not pass judgement in the FIRST lecture la hoh? :P I miss Ms.Pun. >.<

My Managing People in Organisations lecturer is VERY nice. And she speaks brilliant english. I've got a thing for people who speak good english. Makes me listen to them more. *grin* My Business & Econs Stats lecturer pulak abit to the cina side. Lols. Because of Yenyen i laugh whenever she goes, "probality" instead of probablity and "fucktuations" instead of fluctuations. I blame you, Yenyen. I'm the only one who laughs whenever she does it ok!! NOBODY gets it. >.< Sighs.

My tutors are all alright too. :) I don't really know my tutorial mates yet though. I thank God so much for Shuet Zin for teman-ing all the way coz she is still an illegal student at Monash for not submitting her IELTS yet. So, she's been following my timetable! Hope she stays with me! *grin* :)

Alright. That summarises my first week. Oh wait, i forgot the important part...I've already got assignments to do. =.=" SO not cool. And one of them is due in 2 weeks. Blah. Wish me luck. ;)

ORIENTATION BASH!!!!! :) It ROCKED!!! :) I had GREAT fun...gawsh! It was really nice of the *buddies* (voluntary seniors from the student council) to organise the orientation bash at Sunway Lagoon! =) Although i have multiple bruises and walking is a CHORE right now, i'm REALLY glad i went! Hee.

I met some really nice new friends and of course, got to know a few seniors as well! They're so fun man!! Lols. I know i sound jakun again. >.< Maybe i've been deprived from meeting new people. Lols.

From L-R (top) : Kenneth, Zen (buddy), Preston (buddy) and Shuet Zin! (bottom) : Millicent, Michelle, Stephanie and me! =)

There are 4 people from my group that are missing in the picture (oops!) but these people made orientation fun! AND these people all contributed to the fact that WE WON THE ORIENTATION GAME!!!! Wooot!! =) The orientation game was somewhat an amazing race thingy with dares for us to do!

Our first dare was to ride the Tomahawk (the ride that goes 360 degrees) while singing a nursery rhyme! Lols. Abit corny but wth. We did it anyway! We sang Baa Baa Black Sheep, btw. :P After that, we had to earn RM1 from a stranger in Lagoon. Which was pretty easy coz we spotted a foreign couple and we sang a couple of songs to them. It was abit funny coz they were SO sporting with us singing nursery rhymes. To think we're in university. Gahhh. Lols. But it's all good. :P

The rest of the dares were collecting water from the water rapids and the grand canyon with certain rules. Like filling cups only with the splashes or soaking our clothes with water and then trying to fill a bucket. >.< The whole idea was to get really REALLY wet la. With murky water. HAHAHHAHAHA. The ironic thing was that, i went for the orientation ONLY because i wanted to ride the teacup. For FREE!! Lols. I wasn't even PLANNING to get wet. Oh wells. >.< I did go into the wet park though. Until i had to get home early that is. Cacats. This whole being cinderella thing is just annoying. Sigh. Cinderella had to go back by 12am!! Who ever heard of her going back by 5pm??? Sheesh.

Oh, just for the record, MY TEAM WON THE ORIENTATION GAMES!!!! WOOOOT!!! I'm damn happy man. Our team had the MOST girls, and NONE of us chickened out from ANY rides, AND we got back to base 4 minutes before time. Kudos to us!! Haha.

What i learnt at orientation :

#1. Tomahawk is FUN. Especially when you're singing Baa Baa Black Sheep non-stop.

#2. The pirate ship ride can do SERIOUS damage to your boobs and groin area. SO not kidding. The safety braces are just PAINFUL i tell you!!

#3. It's strangely mind-numbing going on the shoe ride. Round and round you go...I STILL think it's not fast enuf. >.<

#4. Always turn your top the right side up before you put them on again!! Hahaha. Sorry, Steph! :P

#5. LC1 and LC2 actually stands for Leng Chai 1 and Leng Chai 2. =.=" My buddies are insane. >.<

Alrighty! Off to bed  now! Will update again soon!

Ellie, over and out! *winks*