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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
:: painting the gate :: Have you guys ever painted a gate? That's what i did yesterday evening. :) It's quite a relaxing task, really. Dip your brush into the paint, and paint long strokes on the gate...up and down it goes...it's a very routine thing. And amazingly, i found myself getting lost in doing so. Painting a gate is like painting your own life really. One steel bar represents one chapter of your life. When you're done with it, you move on to the next bar. Everytime you paint a stroke, you try to get it perfectly done. Smooth and flawless. But yet, some unfortunate parts would be least attended to. A mosquitoe could get stuck onto the wet paint. Thus, making your flawless work no longer flawless. THESE would represent the little bumps in your life. You try your best to do a good job, but SOMETHING will always come up. I realised that it really ISN'T the end of the world that my AS results suck like mad. Although some parts of me still wish that my official results would change miraculously (hardly likely to happen), I have accepted that what is done is done. *sigh* While painting the gate, i reflected on my own life. I have a lot of things going for me. My AS results is just another bump that i will have to get over. And i will. So, i have decided to re-sit my accounts and maths papers. :) It will be tough doing AS and A2 together. But hey, my accounts teacher has agreed to help me out. So it's all good. As for maths, i know i have a couple of friends who will be there for my endless questioning and tolerate my nonsensical talent for maths. :) After getting my results on Monday, i thought i'd be a social recluse and just shut myself out from the world. At THAT point, i felt inferior towards all my friends who did oh-so-much better than i did. Looking from a different viewpoint and based on a friend's judgment, perhaps im just lacking academic skills. And that one day, i'd find something i'm really good at. Its just a matter of time. (hopefully soon though!) :P So, i'd just like to thank all my friends who were there for me. I know i got you guys worried for awhile but there's really no reason to. :) I just needed some space to think things over. AND geez, Adeline, i'm not the kind of person who would LITERALLY commit suicide. *rolls eyes* not for AS at least. hahaha... :P Thank you for all the encouraging and comforting messages. I really and TRULY appreciate it. :) *hugs to all of you* If you guys ever need to reflect on life, i suggest you pick up a brush and start painting your gate. :) It really works. Haha...and just think, not only will you have a brand new-looking gate...you'll save your parents the backache! :)  My new-looking gate in "Rustic Red". :) The tiles look like some eye illusion thing don't it? :P Posted by born2smile at 04:28 pm
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