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Thursday, January 13, 2005
:: sigh :: Why do people do the things they do with no particular reason at all?
Particularly when they THINK they're in love.
Why do people encourage themselves to live life to the fullest and with no regrets...that they end up doing the complete opposite?
How can i be so oblivious to the way i acted that i forgot that classes started at 9am today? Especially when i need to take my mind off certain things. I really do like him. And i know i messed up. I'M SORRY. But i don't think there's anything i can do about it now.
I don't regret doing what i did. HONESTLY. I just wished that the time i spent waiting for his reply wasn't so bloody long. So long that i jumped when the phone vibrated.
I also wish i didn't spend the whole of last nite blushing to myself. Or tossing in bed because i couldn't stop THINKING. Thinking about whether what i did was right or was it wrong. Thinking whether we'd still be firm friends as we were before. Thinking about EVERYTHING.
Then again, there's no right or wrong when it comes to these things. These things take their own course whether u like or not. Some things happen for a reason. But this is definitely one of my own doing.
I felt momentarily free. It felt good not to hide for once, to be able to express how i felt.
But why do i feel like i'm still stuck in a rut??
"THe Closest Thing To Crazy"~ Katie Melua
How can I think I'm standing strong,
Yet feel the air beneath my feet? How can happiness feel so wrong? How can misery feel so sweet? How can you let me watch you sleep, Then break my dreams the way you do? How can I have got in so deep? Why did I have to fall in love with you? This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen, This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known, I was never crazy on my own... And now I know that there's a link between the two, Being close to craziness and being close to you. Posted by born2smile at 07:10 am
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