Someone asked me a question once,"What is love?"

I told her, "I don't know."

Another asked me whether best friends can be lovers. I didn't quite answer the question, i believe.

I'd like to think that my soul partner is my best friend of the opposite sex. But, as much as i wonder of the possibilities, it won't happen. It just doesn't seem right. Even my imagination can't take me there.

Would knowing a person so well be a good thing then? Loving a person for all his or her faults. How well is well enough?

It's one of those nights where u'd think of these sort of things. In the past, i'd call these nonsense. But now, i don't think so.

 

These are questions we seek to answer. Sometimes, we don't even want to know the answer. We just want to go through the journey of searching for it. Wouldn't you agree? =/

 

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How do you know when you love someone?

 

Is it the butterflies? The thoughts that make you grin for no reason whatsoever. The warm, fuzzy feeling you harbour inside. The longing feeling of wanting to just BE with that person. The point where every hour, every minute, every SECOND matters.

 

I passed a place that used to give me all those feelings. It sent my senses reeling. It brought back memories. Memories that were not quite happy, but they weren't sad either. They were just...there. And they left me...surprised.

 

It's the littlest thing or gesture that reminds me of certain people. Their faces just come to mind. A place, a note..a little kid. Isn't it odd what triggers such memories?

How do you KNOW? Is the length of time you've liked that person? It bothers me. Silly, yes..but it does. *wrinkles nose*

 

It's possible that you can mistake companionship with the real thing, right? It's possible that a comfortable feeling be called love? I mean, love, after all, can't really be defined, can it?

 

There was a line in a book that i read. It said,"Who was i to question a love that rode on shooting stars and roared in the crashing waves?"

I thought it was beautiful. It made love sound so STRONG. So romantic. So...unreal.

It just doesn't seem right at this TIME. This era, i should say? Everywhere, you hear people blurting out the famous 3 words...but how many of them really meant it?

What gives it authenticity? The age of the people saying it? The feelings the people are having when they're saying it? The whole i-look-into-your-eyes-and-you-look-into-mine-and-i-have-nothing-better-to-say-at-this-moment situation?

The idea of hearing an orchestra playing when he says those words, still stands for some people. And fireworks bursting out of nowhere.Your leg popping out when you share that special kiss.

Would love really feel that way now?

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I sit alone, a dark theater,
Watching the people arrive hand in hand, everybody but me.
Oh...
I stay behind, watching the credits roll by.
Roll, roll, roll right by me.

Well I know, I won't cry cause there is somebody, somebody,
Somebody waiting for me out in the rain.
I won't cry, not tonight,
Cause there is somebody waiting for me.
Ohhhhh yeahhh.

I take a walk,
The streets are busy tonight,
And I'm searching for you,
Waiting to brush your shoulder.
When I'm alone,
I watch the faces roll by.
Roll, roll, roll right by me.

Well I know, I won't cry cause there is somebody, somebody,
Somebody waiting for me, out in the rain.
I won't cry, not tonight,
Cause there is somebody waiting for me.

How many words will go unspoken?
Ohh.
'Til I hear knocking on my door?
I need some talking the nights I spent heartbroken.
But tonight I know,
I won't cry no more.Ohhhh.

I lie awake.
I left the porch light on.
I hope it helps you to find your way.
Outside I hear the thunder roll by.
Roll, roll, roll right by me.

I know, I won't cry cause there is somebody, somebody,
Somebody waiting for me, out in the rain.

Not gonna cry tonight. No..
Cause there is somebody waiting for me.
Not gonna cry tonight
No no no no no no no
Oh yeah
Oh ohhhh, not gonna cry,
Not tonight
Cause there is somebody waiting for me.
I stay behind watching the credits roll by.
Roll, roll, roll right by me.

-Bonnie McKee-

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Damn. This must be some night. I never thought i could doubt love.

I guess you really can't know until you do, huh?