Yep, so here i am, BLOGGING in the wee hours of the night cause i FEEL like it. I'm in high hopes that doing this would make me feel better.

I'm usually a non-confrontational person. I'd be the first person to avoid any sort of arguments, favouring PEACE and QUIET. (well, not really quiet, but GOOD and HAPPIE laughter). BUt this time i felt drawn into the problem. I felt as if i have experienced it before and i simply can't stand watching someone else going through the same thing. More or less.

I reckon i just had a fight with someone. NO, not punch her face and pull her hair fights, thank you very much. It was the all-famous, COLD WAR aka Perang Dingin.

Have you ever had a disagreement with your best friend? Well, yeah, i believe i just did. So, we're not talking as we usually do. Conversations are kept over-polite and there are awkward silences. *gasp!* Something that has NEVER happened.

Honestly, it sucks. And my room phone has never been so lonely. Or quiet for that matter.

In 11 years of friendship, we never really fought before. Sure, there were the sarcastic comments that *sometimes* bruised us, but you know, it's things that can be let go as easily as 1,2,3. But this wasn't just a normal sarcastic spar that we've been having all this while.

It's a downright disagreement on a *rather* complicated issue. And although it's none of my business, i feel VERY strongly about it.

Y'know, it's funny, i always thought that if we were to fight, it will NEVER be because of a boy. It'll be something more serious, y'know, like BETRAYAL or LYING and BACKSTABBING. Etc. That sorta thing.

Well,whaddaya know? It IS because of a boy. And the weirdest thing of all, i don't give two shits about that boy. Simply because he's a coward who obviously has his head in the clouds and intends to get the best of both worlds.

She claims i don't understand. But really, i do. I understand she truly can't do anything to stop it. And neither can she go telling. I understand that she's going through a hell lot more than she bargained for. What SHE doesn't understand is, i see it from a different point of view. I see it from the view of the person that will get hurt if he/she ever finds out.

I mean, really, how would you feel is someone had to settle for second best just because the best isn't available and is simply a forbidden fruit that tempts? Like the apple Adam and Eve ate.

How would you feel if someone settled for YOU when he can't get the girl of his dreams?

Like i said, it hurts.