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Sunday, March 27, 2005

:: sigh ::

It's Easter.

It's supposed to be an extremely happie day. For God-knows-why reason.

It wasn't because brilliant Ellie told her dad what she did on Friday night. *read previous post*

I just couldn't live with him not knowing.

Dad didn't take it very well.

In fact, dad said a lot of really hurtful things that made me really upset.

What he said felt like multiple stabbings in my heart.

Mom didn't really mind. As long as i become a better person. And stuff.

Am still very upset with what dad said. Can't get over it.

How does believing in a different religion have ANYTHING to do with death?

How can me learning and having new faith be something so BAD?

It's not like i joined a cult. Or took drugs. Maybe i should try smoking.

I never cry. NEVER EVER CRY IN PUBLIC.

I bawled my eyes out in church. In front of the entire church if anybody actually bothered looking.

I still feel like crying.

I still have maths past-year papers to do. I absolutely can't think.

It's supposed to be a happie day.

And i didn't even get chocolate bunnies. *cries*

Posted by born2smile at 05:58 pm

weeliem
April 8, 2005 05:14 AM PDT

heys:) hang in there kays:)
am her eif u need anything:)
ellie
March 30, 2005 12:08 PM PST

gosh kyle..thanks so much! :) will most definitely add u on msn! :)
kyle the GREAT
March 29, 2005 07:01 PM PST

im happy 4 ur decision.... dun worry, i used 2 face d same problem so wat i did was pray 4 it n when most unbelievable things r happenin, god will make impossible things possible. b strong n pray 4 ur dad.... if u still feel unsettled, just msg me on msn... add me la.... ah_boy86@hotmail.com
ellie
March 28, 2005 05:21 PM PST

awww manda...that's so sweet of you.*sniffs* thanks yah. *huggles*
chansaire
March 28, 2005 03:05 PM PST

*gives elles a caramel filled chocolate easter egg*

its okay to cry in public, elles.
give your dad some time to think it over.

your moms' right, as long as you're a better person, you feel better, that's all that matters

ellie
March 28, 2005 07:49 AM PST

thanks chester. :) appreciate it lots. best of luck in YOUR trials too.
Chester
March 27, 2005 08:41 PM PST

Hey! Don't be unhappy.I may not have known the exact words ur dad had said but that he loved you and you meant the world to him is stg i'm quite sure of. On the other hand you 've my full support on your decision. Best of luck in your TRIALS....

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Hello!=) Da name's Ellie.
Born on the most fateful day named 20th September 1987.
Currently residing in Malaysia.
Currently studying Bachelor Of Business & Commerce at Monash University Malaysia..
No longer bumming around but still searching for my true purpose in life..
I attend ACTS Church and CampusCity.
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